The weeks tick off and only a few remain until the movers come to pack up all my possessions and my life will take off in an unknown direction. I have a summer full of exciting things planned, and even though I look forward to every part, in the back of my mind I know that August will come. It's hard not to think about it, to feel anxious. August--for more than a decade I would board a plane and head back to my overseas home to start a new school year. This August I don't know what I will be doing. I have faith that God has a plan but the waiting to know it is not easy. I e-mailed a friend just this week telling her how I am trying to not worry about it, that I'm working on being patient. Maybe I have had the wrong perspective. Perhaps my focus should not be on patience but on passion in the moment, right here in my spot on this path. Living passionately while I wait is not going to be easy for me. I pray though that I will learn to live like that!
Passionate is definitely not the word I expected there. As I was reading in Psalms this morning at first glance I thought the verse said patiently. That gave me pause because patience is a tough thing for me. Wait Patiently. I looked again to take it in and realized in this version the verse actually says PASSIONATELY. Now that takes waiting to a different level. That word feels like an even higher calling than waiting patiently. Patiently means not trying to rush God or hurry through the situation or be anxious about what will happen. To be passionate means to be fully immersed-- to be fully in the moment even while you wait. Wow. That's a lot to live up to!
The weeks tick off and only a few remain until the movers come to pack up all my possessions and my life will take off in an unknown direction. I have a summer full of exciting things planned, and even though I look forward to every part, in the back of my mind I know that August will come. It's hard not to think about it, to feel anxious. August--for more than a decade I would board a plane and head back to my overseas home to start a new school year. This August I don't know what I will be doing. I have faith that God has a plan but the waiting to know it is not easy. I e-mailed a friend just this week telling her how I am trying to not worry about it, that I'm working on being patient. Maybe I have had the wrong perspective. Perhaps my focus should not be on patience but on passion in the moment, right here in my spot on this path. Living passionately while I wait is not going to be easy for me. I pray though that I will learn to live like that!
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Why Anything?"Anything is a prayer of surrender that will spark something. A prayer that will move us to stop chasing things that just make us feel happy and start living a life that matters. A life that is surrendered, reckless, and courageous." ~Jennie Allen, Anything. In November of 2013 I moved to Zambia as a full-time missionary with Family Legacy Missions International. Everyone within the organization raises their own support to keep overhead costs at a minimum so donations to the ministry can go directly to the needs and programs for the orphans and vulnerable children we serve. I trust in God's faithfulness to provide monthly and one-time financial supporters for the work I do here for the education of thousands of children from the slum compounds of Lusaka. If you would like to support me, donations are tax deductible and can be made at www.familylegacy.com/alicia
"God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before Him. When I cleaned up my act, He gave me a fresh start. Indeed, I've kept alert to God's ways; I haven't taken God for granted. Every day I review the way He works, I try not to miss a trick. I feel put back together, and I'm watching my step. God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to His eyes." 2 Samuel 22:25
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